Insomnipotence
Scribbled on 03 September, 2005 at about 1:23 p.m.
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I've been having trouble sleeping lately. The way my body--and my head--works, this isn't really anything new, but in this case it's sort of interesting in a detached sort of way.
I have a tendency to mutter bizarre and nonsensical things under my breath for absolutely no reason. "Fish" comes up often, "fuck" when I'm alone, "break it" if I'm in a bad mood...it's something I tend to blame on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
I blame a lot of things on that.
Lately I've been waking up in the middle of the night screaming gibberish at the top of my lungs. Vegittafitch!
A little irritating but not unusual enough to really be worrisome, I usually get back to sleep pretty quickly.
I'm running on no sleep today because about 10 minutes after I laid down for sleep I suddenly got this feeling like I was being watched. There's somebody -right there.-
Which is ridiculous, it's my room and there's nobody in here but me.
Nonetheless, it wouldn't go away, it just kept getting stronger. My brain keeps telling me I should be uncomfortable in such close proximity with all these people with their attention on me.
I did eventually get to sleep apparently, but I woke up an hour later, buried under the covers with my pillow quite firmly held over my head, clinging to something. Thinking back, I distinctly remember clinging to my pillow beneath me, but that doesn't make sense either as I only have one.
So...yeah, no sleep for Kadin. At least I didn't wake up my upstairs neighbors screaming at the Adecadibin this time.




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